I can't be the only person who struggles with self perception.
It's likely (100%) a symptom of naivety and not yet knowing who I am,
but depending on who I'm speaking with, I can be one of 10,000 different people.
Some people make me feel smart, some people make me feel pretty, some make me feel like an idiot.
This fluctuation is tiring and awful and increasingly difficult to handle.
When interacting with hundreds of people each week,
this shift between multiple personalities is wearing me (metaphorically) thin.
Needless to say, my time alone is precious. That's why I relished today, which I spent seeking a cool place to take a pic of my new Coach bag — which is, incidentally, perfect, and so much more fun to hang out around than another judgmental human.
At least for today.
Yeah I often feel like a lot of different people in one. Or like different outward personalities, but still myself. It's a weird thing and as you move farther in life it just feels harder and harder to root yourself in who you are almost sure you are. Who asked for this growing up business, I DIDNT.
ReplyDeleteIn other news that's a beautiful bag.
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Hey hey! Congrats on the piece on TMR! So exciting and a great read. Fun to see your musings and self-reflective questioning on another site
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